TODAY IS LIFE
(A little posting of explanation for my absence) –
Almost finished preparations for Christmas. Just a few more pieces to go:
But I had a little setback. Blindsided by a 5-year anniversary.
We think we “know ourselves.” But the “knowing” is really just familiarity. After “many” decades of life, you’d think I’d know myself by now. I thought I knew me:
Descendant of Vikings. Daughter of a Marine. Rough and tough tomboy, playing football and “war” with my friends. Emperor Frederick II of Prussia was my hero during high school; he’s the reason why I drove myself to manly excellence in academics and physical strength and . . . well, flute. I can intellectualize my way out of anything. and I thought I was pretty well self-disciplined . . . .
But I had an unexpected setback. Blind-sided. Emotionally.
The 5-year anniversary? Is this:
I write about Hubbie here. I write about Cooper. Five years ago, one of them was just arriving; one of them was just leaving. An unexpected early arrival; a very unexpected early departure. (Again, I chronicled all this in the November 2010 archives here.)
So I’ve pieced my life together; reinvented my household, as all of us have to do from time to time. Stayed true to the one who departed and “inserted” into my life the one who arrived.
That’s how December began, with the residue of “feelings” I had thought I had managed fairly well but had to wrestle with again.
And then I put some old photos up on the wall —
Yep. Me. And Hubbie. (A “few” years ago.) December 21st is our Anniversary.
A lot of years were to follow on after that photo was taken.
And then it’s . . . history. Just history.
I was a history major at the university. I still study history, but somehow I didn’t expect my own life to become . . . history.
So that’s where I’ve been lately – away from The Spruce Tunnel. Perhaps I should get back in and get on with things. Some busy cheery things have happened this month too.
Today is Life.
There are still a few more pieces to fit together in my puzzle.
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